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i tried... but it just wasn't you...i was dealing with.

Rehaan woke up...
His head felt like a rock...and the whole room seems like revolving around him.
A sigh escaped his mouth. And then he saw... The whole room was a mess.

Books scattered over the floor...flower vase broken...lying at the bedside... Tv still on...
 He got up and looked in the other room...kitchen...in balcony...upstairs...but she wasn't there. He felt pale... Where could she be? He picked up his phone and dialled her no... Switch off???? What the hell??
He couldn't figure out what the hell happened...and he couldn't even remember what happened last night.

He decided to go outside to find her... But... There was something on the floor.
No its can't be... No way...

But yes it was... How the hell is it possible?
There were blood droplets... He thought it aloud this time-"what the hell has happened here!!!" and where is Ananya?

He called her again and again... Switch off... And then he saw it... A kettle and his breakfast ready on the kitchen table...and there was a note... Its sunday...where would she hav gone
the note...unlike all other times... Was written neatly and properly... As if she was not in a hurry.
Oh...its a letter...but why would she write a letter...
 He read-
Rehaan,
you remember the day when you have proposed me? You said- you love me...you will always love me. I believed you.

The day when you asked me marry you...your vows were all about the love we share...and that we will give each other all the happiness...this world can offer.again i believed you.
But
I left my parents...my family for you...
you said...we are each other's family...
You will always be my side...i believed you.

But i realized it yesterday...that everything you told me was a lie... A big fat lie. You don't love me...you don't care for me.

one year has passed since the day we started this small lil world of ours...and it was our anniversary... Our first marriage anniversary...and you hurted me... I tried again and again...but you came home drunk...each day... No matter what day or date. You have hurted me so much...but my love for you...had just transformed me into a mild viewer...i hated to see you this way...but thought you need some time and space...

 But last night...you slapped me... That slap wasn't just on my face...but my trust...my love.
I was lying on floor... My nose bleeding...my cheek all red...and with tears in my eyes...
And you just went to our bedroom...switched on the tv...and slept PEACEFULLy.


I tried...for you...for myself...for the love we shared...for our past.

But this is not what i wanted.
Till now i used to think.. eloping was my biggest mistake... Or maybe loving you was.

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Truely said-how could a guy understand what his girl wants..when she herself has got no idea....
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Well if some guy writes this on his facebook wall...i will be so-so angry... I may even shout....what the hell these guys think...

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I guess the best thing i learned till today...is that - if you feel bad...you have a war going on inside your head, you are not sure about the next step you will take...or where your life is going...where you will be , the very next day...or a week later or what you will do...So what if sometimes you feel that things are wrong...nothing is working out the way you suggested... still you will be fine...You will live by all this... many-many similar days are waiting for you...Big dreams and even bigger problems are being positioned by the almighty , just to add a little adventure...But you will live ...It will all be fine in the end...
Just be yourself...and see how beautiful a person you are... Just smile...may be just to practice it...
Because even if...today your smile is a little tired and sad...tomorrow it will be happy...real and satisfying... Life is not about a moment...or a day...or a week...not even a year... Its about the whole...its about you... :)